Creativity and me...

Creativity brings out the best in me, I forget myself, when I am one with "creative", and creative in me! 

You open my eyes and heart to the beauty around me

Make me see what you can offer me.

A chance, a life, a moment of glory..

To be someone, I never thought I'd be.

I have never felt so wonderfully alive

in your company, I feel transcendence..

You bring out the best in me

I never myself knew, how adept at words I could be

Till the words I penned below.

I am willing to risk this pain for a blithe share in your glory

Abandon my fears and live a little longer

For sooner my eyes shall open and I face reality

In your company I am heedless and free..

I posted this image on my facebook page sometime back and knowing me, can't help but write. So this post is dedicated to the "what makes my heart beat harder".... Creativity.

I never considered myself as a Creative person.  The first time I heard that word was when I working in the Web Team and my boss asked me to do something creative.  I freaked out, I am not creative, I can't come up with something creative.  But going back to the task and thinking of doing something creative, made me realise that creativity was nothing but out of the box thinking... which I somehow, find very challenging and something that make my heart beat faster.  If someone would even ask me to think up and come with something different, I'd spend the next 2 to 3 days walking in a daze and dreaming and thinking and not hearing any conversations going around me (Imagine me being silent)...I'd dream in pictures and visualise and think and draw and write and keep doing stuff and put aside all priorities to just catch that train of thoughts running around my head.  Imagine thinking in a frame slides per second, before you've seen it, the next picture is thrown at you and you jump from one thought process to another.

It takes the right kind of person to kindle that fire and you let you discover your true self.  I have been good at art in school and even during my Legion of Mary days. We had very creative and fun outgoings, planning for the most different events that would make a difference.  But I never quite used this opportunity at work in terms of creativity, except for in excellence building, as I could think in my head the full process before I could actually make it work.  I owe this discovery to my boss Nandakumar.  Trust Nandakumar for finding the talent and reaping its benefits.  He makes you feel like you are a different and unique individual and that you should use your talents and gifts to build people and build yourself.  He has taught me so much and pushed me to challenges I had doubts I could achieve myself. I always shirked from taking initiative as I thought that my inefficiency would get reflected.  You see I am an extremely forgetful person and I forget many things I am supposed to do.  

But when the Creativiy bug strikes, I don't forget.  Infact, its difficult to stream those ideas and images.  I need just a paper or a whiteboard to start drawing all those thoughts in 3D which cannot be captured by any camera the world over.  This is my remorse, and many a times I let go because I feel too lazy to pursue my dreams, because once I get involved it is nothing but all of me.  Entirely devoted, dedicated to make it succeed whatever the cost.  It may look stupid to others, but atleast I gave it a shot. 

I remember reading Richard Roll's blog on what makes your heart beat the hardest. Here's the link http://www.richroll.com/uncategorized/the-art-of-living-with-purpose/.  

Rich Roll is world renowned ultra-distance triathlete, wellness advocate, host of the wildly popular Rich Roll Podcast & #1 bestselling author of Finding Ultra: Rejecting Middle Age, Becoming One of the World’s Fittest Men & Discovering Himself. You can read more words and listen to his conversations at www.richroll.com

He speaks of "stop trying so hard to find shortcuts to “hack” your life.  The best things are hard.  Invest in the journey" and he goes on to say 

Then the voice.  That flawless, unpolluted and haunting ancient pure Celtic tongue.  A relic of wisdom from a time long since past.  

Open your eyes and heart to the world.

I never set out to become anything in particular, only to live creatively, and push the scope of my experience. For adventure. And through passion.

Heavy waves, waves with weight. They coax from comfortable routine. Ignite the imagination. Convey some divine spark.  Whisper possibilities.

If I only scrape a livin’, at least it’s a livin’ worth scrapin’. If there’s no future in it, at least its a present worth rememberin’. For fires of happiness. And waves of gratitude. For everything that brought us to that point on Earth at that moment in time. To do something worth rememberin’.

I've never been so inspired by something so transformational.  Richards life has been a strenuous journey, but never did he give up.  At 40 he dreamed the impossible.  His inspiration has awakened a latent fire in me, to push myself to the limits, to test what I can do and where I can go...Let's see what the coming months bring in terms of transforming myself and what I do with what I  have.  And let me be able to find the true answer to what makes my heart beat the hardest!